#chapters: where i tell you

[tadfools]

You guys are commenting on the fics you read right? You’re at least leaving kudos on the Astarion smut and the pairs that have less than 20 fics for them too? You’re bookmarking stories you really like that are still being updated and ones that haven’t been touched in over a year right?

You know that even the smallest interactions are like cocaine to fic writers right? You understand how important a string of emoji hearts left behind on a chapter at three am is right?? Right????

You’re treating AO3 like a community and not a content factory….right?

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[fumifooms]

I don’t like minimizing the importance and gravity of Laios and Toshiro’s fight into just being a childish squabble, even if to a degree it is framed that way, because to both of them it has a lot of personal significance and emotional weight and runs very deep to their characters… The fight isn’t nothing it’s a LOT, they made up but it’s not something easy to express and to get over for either of them which makes it all the more meaningful! I’m on both sides but there very much are sides, there’s no "they’re both having a ball, Toshiro and Laios hand in hand yay" side to the fight, that comes after

The fight with Toshiro WAS very scary to Laios, almost existentially so, but it’s moreso the "I thought I’d made a friend!!" bit and my god. My god actually

Like it’s not "just" about oh his friend liking him less than he thought, THAT IS SO MUCH. It’s a bond he thought he had being a lie it’s all the time and moments spent together either being a lie from his perspective or marred now looking back. It’s not only being upset at Toshiro for lying but upset at himself that he’s so easy to fool, it’s being upset that there’s something so wrong with you that you can’t even tell if your "close buddy" even actually likes you or not, it’s like. Holding my head. He can’t trust his own vision of events that happened do you see. There’s always this film of distrust that it could be a lie that should be there when he interacts with people there’s always this sense of cloak and dagger to expect backstabs out of nowhere because you CAN’T see it coming you CAN’T you CAN’T there’s something about you which makes it impossible so you CAN’T-

He’s so scared of not being able to read people. He knows it’s a weak spot he has, he’s always known. All of these bits are centered around social expectations and betrayals, the assumption that he doesn’t belong either in society or with other humans.

And Laios’ level of awareness is actually sort of complex to analyze, but it’s there, there’s how out of him and Falin he was the one sensitive to the ~aura of hatred~ he felt from the townspeople, there’s of course his nightmares whispering to him about the mocking looks, and how yeah actually he realizes that his gold stripper coworker was taking advantage of him. There’s of course the Winged Lion speech about his trauma and how he fundamentally mistrusts/dislikes humans to some deep seated degree, this distrust that he still keeps under control always. There’s how pre-canon he often wanted to suggest eating monsters but never worked up the courage to bring it up with the others. There’s how he gets across as stoic when he isn’t being enthusiastic…… We don’t know how aware and wary he is exactly in the moment but we do know he has some anxiety around social stuff, and looking back he does notice and aughh augh, the sense you have to hide yourself to not get hurt and be on your guard and shit and.

When you don’t know what to look out for and when to look out for it, the general ‘common sense’ of not always trusting people or noticing when someone’s messing with you becomes hypervigilance in social settings

"Man they really know what you hate huh". Being socially unaware literally plagues him, he knows, he knows it so well.

It’s so quick that it’s almost hard to digest how literal and blatant Laios summoning his monster to crush all the people who’ve hurt him is. His literal go-to coping mechanism for comfort in his literal monster-induced emotionally intense nightmares, saving him by taking away the upsetting element (the humans)

"Monsters are his coping fantasy, where they can whisk him away from humanity, all the hurt it’s caused him and its arbitrary rules" with the subtlety of a brick. Monsters are his comfort safe zone "because they kill humans" yes but no it’s because he pits them as the guardians against humans who to him are in the role of the agressors. To him they represent freedom from the shackles of what it means to be part of humanity, a fundamentally social species

[saywhatyouwillbut]

i’m sorry about kidnapping your boyfriend so we could give the fbi false testimony. yes, i tried to feed him, he thinks thai is too fattening and wouldn’t have any. i also put out a hit on his rapist

[dizzybizz]

some haikyuus

[starry-bi-sky]

mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.

now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.

He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.

(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)

The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.

The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.

And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.

(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)

The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.

anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

jon val jon or something

[froggychair05]

“I took a little journey to the unknown

And I've come back changed, I can feel it in my bones”

- Meet Me In The Woods by Lord Huron

I’m very very normal about @enden-agolor’s Forest Deity AU :)

[buwheal]

Unexpected but fair.

How long were we disconnected?

[shiro-s2e2-erukinzu]

Anime only watchers and people who aren't caught up with the Manga, BEWARE... Cuz I'm about to discuss Spy X Family Mission 106... You have been warned...! 👌

[SPOILERS AHEAD FROM THIS POINT ON]

*Inhales...*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! THAT CHAPTER WAS SOOOOOO GODDAMN INTENSE!!!!!!! 😱😱😱 LIKE SERIOUSLY, OH MY LORD!!!!!!! 😵😵😵

This chapter has me so much on FREAKING edge right now...!! 😵 So let's talk about it, shall we...?

So when I saw that this chapter is taking place at the Desmond estate, I was already starting to feel uneasy, but after this part with Jeeves:

MY UNEASINESS STARTED TO RAISE...!! 😥

We then immediately see Damian knocking at Demetrius' bedroom door...:

Damian was just trying to ask Demetrius for some help with his homework, but of course, Demetrius immediately turns him down... 😩 (Seriously though, I really want to know what exactly happened to Demetrius to make him act the way he does towards Damian...! 😓)

After that, Damian is seen playing with his dog, Max, who knocks Damian into some water, then we see Jeeves and another servant of the Desmond family named Mary Jane rush to his aid...!! Then this happens...:

...Which means...:

MOTHER FUCKING DONOVAN DESMOND JUST MADE ANOTHER APPEARANCE IN THIS GODDAMN MANGA, Y'ALL!!!! 😵😵😵😵😵

But also...:

THE DESMONDS ARE ALL FINALLY IN THE SAME FREAKING ROOM TOGETHER!! 😱

And let me tell you something, the next few pages or so were some the most INTENSE pages in a manga that I've ever read...!!! 😰 There was little to no talking, just mostly silence...:

We had Melinda lookin' like she was wearing a "I really wish I weren't here right now" button like Squidward from Spongebob; then we had Demetrius over here LITERALLY JUST EATING like everything is fine; We also had Damian just trying have enough courage to talk to his dad; while Donovan continues to be both creepy and mysterious...!!

THIS FAMILY NEEDS SOME GODDAMN HELP!!! 😫😫😫

Soon, everyone started leaving one by one; first Demetrius, then Melinda, and finally Donovan, who said that the dinner they just had was a worthwhile one, which led to Damian asking Jeeves about it, and...:

WHAT IS THIS FUCKER PLANNING!? WHAT IS GOING ON INSIDE HIS HEAD!?!? 😵😵😵

And that was Mission 106; And HOO BOY, that chapter was STRESSFUL...!! 😮‍💨 I have not been this stressed reading a chapter of Spy X Family in awhile, but this one might the most uncomfortable and unnerving chapter in the series, in my opinion... 😥 AND NOTHING REALLY CRAZY HAPPENED, IT WAS JUST A QUITE "FAMILY" DINNER!😫 But that's probably why it was so unsettling to me, the Desmonds don't feel like a family, they feel like strangers forced to live under the same roof, but that's exactly why they are the perfect foil for the Forgers...

Man, I can't get over how uneasy this entire chapter made me feel... 😓 I literally felt like I had to cut tension with a chainsaw with how tense everything felt...!! 😫

Anyway, I don't know what's coming next, whether we're sticking with the Desmonds in the next chapter or if we're gonna follow someone else, I'M READY FOR ANYTHING ENDO THROWS AT ME!!! 🗣🗣🗣 So until the next Mission; take care, be safe out there and be kind to one another...!! PEACE!! ✌😌

[pocketramblr]

I would do anything to save her.

This was supposed to just be drawing the Taoden siblings hugging a bunch but ah guess that Falin as the tower/princess/dragon post got into my head too much

[mintjeru]

it probably wasn't the smartest decision to start an ongoing 1000+ chapter webnovel when i know it'll consume my every waking thought but here we are

open for better quality | no reposts

[revasserium]

just: cry fly

[i-suc-at-art]

Ummm.. I really love this fic

*hands @basilf1res this gently*

Any ways go read project “GH05T” it’s really good :)

[queenerdloser]

i just finished dark heir

[calitsnow]

Just thinking late at night …